Regret

I hide my feelings and I keep things to myself. It's my biggest flaw; I regret it so much.
I wish I was able to tell the guy I like, that I like him. Every time I start typing away what I want to tell him I end up backspacing the truth away. I wish I could yell it at the top of my lungs. I hate myself; why can't I be confident like those girls on T.V? It's fiction, but why can't it be reality? I have 8 months left to say something before we go our separate ways; before we walk across the stage and grab our diplomas. What then? I don't want to look back and regret it my entire life; I don't want it to linger in the back of my head, I don't want it to be my "what if..." in life. I think I'm also afraid of being rejected. I don't take rejection well; it depends on the situation. I don't expect to marry this guy, but you never know what life has in store for you. I just don't want to regret not saying anything.

Nothing Left but a Little Hope

Innocent souls walk the streets hopelessly,
waiting for sign from the heavens, to bring them out of their misery.
They try to find shelter,
 but they are cursed by the tears of the sky,
crying, full of pity.
They try to find food, but it is poisoned by the disease that have covered it.
They have lost all faith,
it will take a miracle to restore,
these souls, that lack of dignity, drying out quickly.
I look at the souls walking the streets,
I wish I could help, but my pockets are empty.
I fill of guilt and shame,
I have riches, but beg for more.
These souls have nothing,
Nothing to give and
Nothing to seek, yet they still live
They wait for a miracle, that might not ever come.

   - Cat Benitez

Top 10 Favorite Books

I've been reading lots of good books lately, so I had the need to post this list right now.

1. Stiff- Mary Roach

2. Blink- Malcolm Gladwell

3. The Great Gatsby- F. Scott Fitzgerald

4. Dreamland- Sarah Dessen 

5. It's Kind of A Funny Story- Ned Vizzini

6. The Babysitter- R.L Stine

7. Everything Is Illuminated- Jonathan Safran Foer

8. The Picture of Dorian Gray- Oscar Wilde

9. It's Complicated: The American Teenager

10. Let the Great World Spin- Colum McCann

Top 25 Favortie Songs

1. Tulips - Bloc Party

2. Charlie Brown - Coldplay

3. Strawberry Swing - Coldplay

4. P.D.A - John Legend

5. Life is Simple in the Moonlight - The Strokes

6. Automatic Stop - The Strokes

7. Primadonna - Marina and the Diamonds

8. Shelter - The XX

9. A Team - Ed Sheeran

10. Same Mistakes - One Direction

11. Sombras - Zoe

12. Paula - Zoe

13. You Only Live Once - The Strokes

14. Bittersweet Symphony - The Verve

15. Naive - The Kooks

16. 40 Day Dream - Edward Sharpe & The Magnetic Zeros

17. Rock Your Body - Justin Timberlake

18. Promiscuous - Nelly Furtado ft.Timbaland

19. Miss You - Foster the People

20. Right Where You Want Me - Jesse McCartney

21. Glass - Julian Casablancas

22. Two Weeks - Grizzly Bear

23. Another One Goes By - The Walkmen

24. She's No You - Jesse McCartney

25. Flashback - Calvin Harris