Regret

I hide my feelings and I keep things to myself. It's my biggest flaw; I regret it so much.
I wish I was able to tell the guy I like, that I like him. Every time I start typing away what I want to tell him I end up backspacing the truth away. I wish I could yell it at the top of my lungs. I hate myself; why can't I be confident like those girls on T.V? It's fiction, but why can't it be reality? I have 8 months left to say something before we go our separate ways; before we walk across the stage and grab our diplomas. What then? I don't want to look back and regret it my entire life; I don't want it to linger in the back of my head, I don't want it to be my "what if..." in life. I think I'm also afraid of being rejected. I don't take rejection well; it depends on the situation. I don't expect to marry this guy, but you never know what life has in store for you. I just don't want to regret not saying anything.